01. the dogs.
02. my job.
03. sidekick II
04. this apartment.
05. having no money.
06. emily, the roommate.
07. pete motherfucking-wentz.
08. the mail system.

let's elaborate, shall we, and look deeper into these items.

01. the dogs.
i have about had it up to HERE with the dogs. sadie has forgotten that she is "potty trained" and seems to prefer the comfort of the carpet for when she has to go to the bathroom. zephyr isn't much better. she's a lot worse, actually. granted, she's a puppy. but she should have learned at least a little bit by now. and what's with jumping the gates and getting out of the bathroom and tearing up the living room? if they don't start getting the picture soon, i'm selling them to the glue factory.

02. my job.
i thought maybe it wouldn't be so bad, and that it'd be close enough to what i was doing to make me happy. but really, i was wrong. 80% of the time, i'm doing nothing, i don't like the clients that much at all - and i think the only good thing i'm accomplishing is further my progress in my video games. and.. $7 an hour.. is barely enough to survive on. susan keeps hitting herself in the head with her shoes and belinda is drooling all over the damn place and marlen is crying. god, i hate this.

03. sidekick II
i hate that it feels like she's on it all the time.
04. this apartment.
this one kind of goes back to the dogs. i hate how the apartment smells like piss. and we have to wear flip flops when we walk around cause we can't walk on the carpet cause it's filthy from them. i hate our neighbors. i hate that we have cockaroaches and that our kitchen is missing a drawer. i can't wait until we can move and have our own little house together.

05. having no money.
unfortunate as it is, having money makes life so much easier to do. there's so many little things we want to do. from going out to dinner, to going to concerts. and we can't do them because we don't have the money to. we hardly have enough to pay our bills and put food in our bellies after. how are we going to move? how are we going to get married? when will we be able to have kids? i'm looking hard but i still can't really see that moneyship coming..

06. emily, the roommate.
if she could just... contribute to the apartment a little. vacuum.. clean the bathroom a little.. empty the dishwasher.. take out the trash. just once in a while. or maybe just try not being so fucking rude all the damn time. and another thing. she doesn't have to think kristi and i are perfect for each other. but at the very least, could she maybe not talk shit about me/us to kristi/other people? i mean, it'd be nice if at least one of our so-called friends was happy for us.

07. pete motherfucking-wentz.
i hate this little bitch and his tight jeans and his hoodies and his tattoos and his goddamn penis. i hate him for being "the sexy one" in the band. i hate him because one day kristi said "i have a crush on him." i hate him for being the one that is always in the front of pictures.. he's only the bass player! i hate him for taking pictures of his ugly, shaven penis and for them getting "leaked"[posted] on the internet. i hate him because kristi looked at them. and i hate how that broke my heart. i hate every little sigh and noise she makes when he's on tv and i hate how it hurts me. i hatehatehate him and i hope he gets in a plane crash.

08. the mail system.
why haven't i received my package from utah? where is my card from poppa? are my posters even going to show up? it'd be nice if even just my damn phone bill would show up, just so i could know that something was working right. i am quite frusturated.

okay. i'm done.. aside from all that, i am very quite in love. life is very nice right now. i am very in love with kristi. i hate being away from her all day long. we only see each other a few hours every day. but our days off together are so good. and it's the best feeling coming home to her waiting for me.

see, she makes life worth living.
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